My Journey Into BDSM [Blog Post Collaboration!]

Hi My Friends!

This post is a special blog collaboration between Erotic Musings with Papa Grizzly, Sex Talk With Aylin, and Myself. Today we are sharing our personal journeys and experiences entering the BDSM lifestyle. For me, that journey began nearly 15 years ago. Let me begin by saying that I identify as a hybrid Little. I am part slave and part Little. Hence why I write about both BDSM and DDLG. Now let’s rewind the clock to 2004. I was much younger, and at a point in my life that was dramatically different. I’d like to think that we all come into BDSM organically, in a way that when we finally arrive, we think, “huh… I suppose there were hints all along the way”. For me, it was just the same.

Back then I was just beginning to get into online roleplay. As a nerd and an MMO gamer, I was immersed in a virtual environment with real people from all around the world. One such person was a tall Elven White Mage with a passion for BDSM. We connected (online) and began talking, just as two friends would talk if they were sitting in a coffee shop together. Our adventures across Vana’diel lead us to a small grove one night in which he taught me about the arousal of blood sports, and a contract. My heart pounded as my fingers clicked over the keys and I began to wonder what it was, exactly, that I was feeling and experiencing. I wanted to know more.

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It all began with one innocent night of roleplay…

Throughout my 20’s I met many people in person and otherwise that came from all walks of life. We would open up through the world of roleplay, and they would share their innermost kinks and desires. The experiences moved and shaped me as I began doing my own research to discovering what each one was. You see, I had come from a personal background of sexual repression. My parents never spoke about sex, “the talk”, or anything even about STD’s or genitalia. So, there I was stepping into a world where I began learning about what a kink actually is… what each letter of B.D.S.M. actually means, (Note: In case you weren’t sure it means, Bondage & Discipline, Dominance & Submission, and Sadism & Masochism)… and why people are attracted to the things they are! It was mind-blowing and fascinating. Even when I met people whose kinks weren’t aligned with mine, (and there were many!), I still wanted to understand what made them feel sexually attracted to that particular fetish. I welcomed them and held space as they divulged their innermost fantasies to me. It was liberating and a time that I’ll cherish forever.

And then one night I met my first dom. We met unexpectedly, and by that, I mean that somehow… some way… he sought me out. Like a hawk racing down to scoop up their prey, he whisked me away from everything I knew in the world of roleplay and brought it into real life. His domination style was that of a Master, and though the relationship was long distance, I found myself falling for him hard. He pushed my boundaries, engaging me in things that I had only dreamed to do up until that point. I was left breathless, sweaty, with a soft smirk on my lips at the end of every play session. A bond had formed that will forever remain in my heart.

As that relationship concluded and the bond between my Daddy and I began, my world slowly opened up even more. I had gotten a real spoonful of the world of BDSM and I wanted more. So much more. I devoured books with an unquenchable thirst. I bought sex toys and bondage kits, learning and studying each one carefully. I watched videos and studied the words of others that have long practiced in our community, absorbing everything they had to say. Over the years I began to practice and learn what felt right for me, and what information I could learn and then discard.

I began to tap into the innermost parts of my soul as I discovered my little side, and found my “little voice”. The parts of my childhood that had long been neglected and skipped over, were finally being nourished and able to thrive as “Little Me” got to experience what my youth wished it had. Voids began closing, and my heart began feeling full as I learned that true submission means being in a state of freedom and relaxation. I embraced the joy of being controlled, a head space where the anxiety and worry that normally blankets my mind, suddenly quiets down and all I have to do is listen to my Daddy’s voice.

I began to grow as a woman, and as a sub, who is able to express my deepest desires and wants. I guess you could say that the world of BDSM saved me, in a way. It allowed me to come out of my shell. It has made me feel beautiful, both inside and out. It has connected me with people, and my Daddy, in a way that I never thought was possible. It has tapped into my creative side, allowing me to share this joy with the world. It is my hope that every dom and sub out there takes the time to really walk and find their own journey. Learn to dive into yourself. Take the time for introspection and learning. Read books. Listen to others that have walked this path before you. Know that you’re far from alone. This lifestyle is truly beautiful and I feel blessed to be a part of it.

That’s it from me for today, my friends. Please be sure to hop on over to Erotic Musings with Papa Grizzly, and Sex Talk With Aylin, and read their posts. Have a wonderful Friday, everyone, and until next time… keep on smiling! 😊

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