Good Evening Friends,
As always, I’m transparent on here. So that said, tonight I’m typing this with puffy eyes. Days 1 and 2 were smooth sailing. But today hit me like a tidal wave that I didn’t see coming. It wasn’t so much the withdrawal, but external stress that hit me…. which made me feel like I got put into a blender and spit back out again. Lately I’ve been trying to be more mindful of my emotions. I don’t always need to be so damn strong. If I’m sad, I acknowledge the sadness and then begin to work through it.
So, too, did I acknowledge the need to quietly cry today. I sat in the gazebo out back and looked at the setting sun. The farm grew quiet as tears slid down my face. It was a day filled with stress. Things that I didn’t see coming. Shit that I had to deal with. (We all have days like this, I know).
I let the tears fall. Cosmos slinked up to my leg silently, reminding me that he was there and it helped.
Tonight I was going to write about how being a hypochondriac can be linked to anxiety. (I’ve been one of those for most of my life). But in all honesty, I’m tired. Crying tuckers me out. Somehow by a sheer miracle I still got my workout in. The chores got done. Everything on my “to do” list was achieved and my work was complete. But mentally I’m bushed.
So tonight’s thought is: surrender to the emotion that you’re feeling…. and then rise.
Know that you’re stronger then you give yourself credit for. Know that bad days happen, but that good ones are ahead. Know that it’s okay to speak your mind. It’s okay to release emotion through tears when things feel too much. It’s okay to take some quiet time to be alone.
Yeah, that’s all I’ve got tonight, my dear friends. ❤ I appreciate you reading through this brutally honest post. I love the warm, supportive comments you all leave me. It makes me smile and lifts my heart. 🙂
Now I’m ready to head to bed to wake up and start a new day… a better day… and one filled with smiles and laughter. Until tomorrow. ❤