Day 3 of SSRI Withdrawal: It’s Okay to Cry

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“It’s okay if all you did today was survive” ❀

Good Evening Friends,

As always, I’m transparent on here. So that said, tonight I’m typing this with puffy eyes. Days 1 and 2 were smooth sailing. But today hit me like a tidal wave that I didn’t see coming. It wasn’t so much the withdrawal, but external stress that hit me…. which made me feel like I got put into a blender and spit back out again. Lately I’ve been trying to be more mindful of my emotions. I don’t always need to be so damn strong. If I’m sad, I acknowledge the sadness and then begin to work through it.

So, too, did I acknowledge the need to quietly cry today. I sat in the gazebo out back and looked at the setting sun. The farm grew quiet as tears slid down my face. It was a day filled with stress. Things that I didn’t see coming. Shit that I had to deal with. (We all have days like this, I know).

I let the tears fall. Cosmos slinked up to my leg silently, reminding me that he was there and it helped.

Tonight I was going to write about how being a hypochondriac can be linked to anxiety. (I’ve been one of those for most of my life). But in all honesty, I’m tired. Crying tuckers me out. Somehow by a sheer miracle I still got my workout in. The chores got done. Everything on my “to do” list was achieved and my work was complete. But mentally I’m bushed.

So tonight’s thought is: surrender to the emotion that you’re feeling…. and then rise.

Know that you’re stronger then you give yourself credit for. Know that bad days happen, but that good ones are ahead. Know that it’s okay to speak your mind. It’s okay to release emotion through tears when things feel too much. It’s okay to take some quiet time to be alone.

Yeah, that’s all I’ve got tonight, my dear friends. ❀ I appreciate you reading through this brutally honest post. I love the warm, supportive comments you all leave me. It makes me smile and lifts my heart. πŸ™‚

Now I’m ready to head to bed to wake up and start a new day… a better day… and one filled with smiles and laughter. Until tomorrow. ❀

Much love,

~Kitten xx

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  1. One of the best things I learned was, in intense moments, observe the feelings and exist with it. Sometimes it’s exactly what needs to happens. Here’s to your tomorrow being the best it can be πŸ™‚

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  2. Look after yourself Kitten. If you do find it too difficult either mentally or physically, and you have a good GP whom you trust, I am sure you can go and touch base with them? Don’t put anything ahead of your wellbeing.

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    1. Thank you, Barney! If things get to be too much I will certainly head to my GP. ❀ For now, I'm snuggled up tight watching anime and sipping on a cuppa. Somehow tea always calms the nerves, right? Big hugs to you (and Thomas), my friend! xx

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      1. Ninja Scroll?! How has this evaded me! If you have Netflix, I totally recommend: Naruto, Maid-Sama, Ouran High School Host Club, and Teasing Master Takagi-san. They’re all SO good! Hehe *blushes* I’m such a nerd ❀ xx

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      2. I don’t know any of them. I am old school. Someone gave me a copy of Akira the other week but I can’t find it. Ninja Scroll intersperses elements of the Miyomoto Musashi myth into it. True Japanese storytelling.

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      3. I just read the synopsis of “Ninja Scroll”. It looks like a great movie, and I’ll check it out! πŸ™‚ When I do, I’ll let you know what I think, hehe. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being old school. ❀ Hehe I am old school in many ways too. Embrace it. πŸ˜‰ Sometimes the world is too fast paced and high tech for my taste. I hope you're having a relaxing evening and doing something fun over there, my friend. xx

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      4. Nearly 4pm here. 44Β°C outside. Just working on a book.
        Went and saw Star Wars last night. Might see the new Guy Ritchie film when it comes out.
        My doctor got me doing transcendental meditation about 4 years ago to help with medication etc… I find it helps.

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      5. Ooooo I love meditation too!! Thank you for the tip ❀ You must be…. an Aussie?! Or a Kiwi! Hehe I love guessing games. (^_^) Are you talking about "The Gentlemen"? Ooo! And did you know that Guy Ritchie directed the new Aladdin movie? He's so talented. If you ever want to swap emails and chat, let me know! xx

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      6. I never knew he directed Aladdin. Wow. Thanks for telling me. Will put my email on a thread on my blog. I email with Mistress and her boi… and Unleash the Cougar. Not really on kink with either of them. Both are great people and we talk about things regarding writing and mental illness/creativity, etc…
        Yeah, am in Melbourne, Australia. Where are you?

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      7. Yay!! I’m in Central Coastal Cali! πŸ™‚ Hehe I had a feeling you were an Aussie ^_~ I can’t wait to chat with you. I’ll go check out that thread. We have much to gush about! xx

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      8. I been over your way awhile back. I could skate vert then. I would be lucky to ollie off a curb now whithout breaking my leg… or someone else’s neck

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  3. Dear Kitten. I presume you are withdrawing with your GPs approval? I hope so sweetie. Please be careful. You sound so self aware I’m sure you’ll be ok. Insight is so important with mental issues. I was on Fluox for a year or so when my husband died. The half life was about a month which helped me slowly withdraw.
    Thinking of you. Thank you for your beautiful spirit that shines out from your posts. Isn’t WP community so helpful?

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    1. Naomi, your comment made me smile from ear to ear! The beauty of technology is meeting people like YOU all the way across the world and being able to connect just like this! πŸ™‚ Sadly, my prescribing neurologist moved away from my town before my final appointment to begin tapering off my medicine. So I went “cold turkey”. But if things get to be too much, I have a lovely GP that I’ll head to and see what options she has for me. Sending you and Rex big hugs, my friend! Thank you for such a loving and supportive comment. It made my night ❀ xx

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  4. It’s like we’re almost in sync. Friday (20th), I was wrecked, too. A lot of it was grief and exhaustion, and everytime I thought I was done, it was a wave, and another wave, and another. Just be gentle on yourself and allow yourself to feel what you need to feel, when you need to feel it. Big hugs from a fellow hypochondriac! πŸ™‚

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