Day 5 of SSRI Withdrawal: Sometimes… You Just Have to Try

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This is me tonight lol

Good Evening Friends,

Tonight I thought I would focus in on how I’m feeling physically and emotionally with you. My hope is that if someone out there is crazy enough to go off their SSRI medication cold turkey (like me) then, you know that there is an end to all of these symptoms and feelings.

That said, tonight I’m feeling thoughtful. I know it’s the withdrawal. It’s the dip in serotonin, so I’m being mindful and sitting with a cuppa and a blanket wrapped around me like a burrito. πŸ™‚ I’m staying kind to myself when my heart feels tender and so fragile. This evening I was reflecting on how much it bothers me when people don’t try to do things. They are fully capable of taking that one baby step… or opening up their heart just an inch… or reaching out to connect… and yet, they don’t. Maybe it’s because I like to uplift, support, and cheer people on. I don’t know.

I had an ex like that. I wanted so badly for us to be close. I worked so hard, questioning… reaching.. probing… because I cared. But over time, I guess they lost interest in me, and silence filled the many hours. While I am very comfortable with quiet, I also love sharing joy, laughter, and love. It’s in my very nature to share the deep well of love that I have to give. And so it stings when that is rejected. I suppose I’ll just have to keep reminding myself that not everyone is going to want my company, and not everyone will like me.

But how come people can be so… rude?! I just don’t understand it. If you want something, go for it. Life is short. Time is precious. People are rare jewels to savor and treasure. And your stories and adventures are just waiting to be written. So, get going! My apologies for the rant.

Physically the nausea has killed much of my appetite today so I’ve been nibbling on crackers and tea to settle my stomach. I’ve snuggled up and binged watched “X Files” on Amazon Prime. (It’s such a great show! A wonderful friend got me hooked. So now I’m passing the love forward and recommend this show to all of you, hehe! πŸ™‚ ).

I know these flu-like symptoms will pass. There will come a day in the very near future where I will wake up, rub my eyes, and remember all of the detoxing my body went through to get to that point.

For now, I’ll burrow.

On more happier notes, I am excited to be writing about Little Space again. There’s something about feeling physically icky that makes me feel small inside. Little Me creeps to the forefront as I sit quietly and watch my show. I inhale the smell of honey in my tea. I put my crackers in a bright colored bowl to make me smile, and I relax.

To those new to my blog, or unfamiliar with Little Space and DDLG, I have written a great post about what the DDLG Community is all about. If you’re curious, I would advise you to begin there. But for tonight, I wanted to answer some quick, commonly asked questions about me, my little space, and this blog, so that you can get your “feet wet” here.

Question #1: Why do you rarely mention sex and little space?Β 

DDLG on social media is commonly associated with sexual undertones because many Littles who publish posts weave age play into their content. I, however, do not. I am more of a S.F.W. Little, or a “wholesome” Little. My little space derives from a mindset of feeling small, playful, and happy-go-lucky. It’s a mindset where I can feel silly and just have fun. Sex is the last thing on my mind in little space, and when I do get aroused I simply revert to my normal, adult self.

Question #2: Is your little space a kink?Β 

A kink is defined as: a sexual taste. And given that my little space is wholesome… nope! Being a little isn’t my kink. πŸ™‚

Question #3: Do you write about other things outside of DDLG?Β 

I do at times! I try to weave parts of who I am as a person throughout this blog to demonstrate myself as an author and a Little. It’s my hope that I shine through in a well-rounded manner. πŸ™‚

Question #4: What can we expect in 2020 on here?Β 

I am super excited for the things to come in 2020! I don’t want to give everything away, but you can expect new, published books on Amazon… workshop series on here for dominants and submissives… and lots of videos coming to my YouTube channel. So stay tuned! ❀

Question #5: I’m new to being a Little. Where should I begin?Β 

Beyond the DDLG 101 section on this blog, here are a few great series that I highly recommend:

Alright my friends, I hope you all have a wonderful day/night. Sending you big hugs across the miles. And I will see you back here in the morning!

Much love,

~Kitten xx

14 comments

  1. The real thing is the chemistry between Duchovney and Anderson. Absolute genius. Scully plays the straight guy and some of the best punchlines are from her.

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    1. Oh man! “Squeeze” was soooo CREEPY! lol I totally jumped when he busted through Scully’s grate. Hehehe! Yeah, their chemistry is really good and I’m glad she’s coming around to wanting to remain on the X-Files now.

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    1. You’re absolutely right. Tapering off slowly is the correct way to go off SSRI’s and I advocate that all people who wish to go off it should go about it that way to avoid uncomfortable symptoms. Unfortunately, my doctor moved away and I’m unable to get a reduction in my medicine dose which is why I went cold turkey. But! One day this will all be behind me and I’ll be feeling great in no time. πŸ˜‰ I hope you’re having a wonderful day. Cheers, friend! xx

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      1. Just get a pill chopper and cut them in half if you have any. Do you have a family doctor? If so ask him! I stopped a med cold turkey and lost my appetite for six months! Dropped from over 200 lbs to 150. When I looked up the med, it indicated never stop cold turkey!

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  2. Yeah – it’s amazing how rude people can be when they just don’t like you. I have a monthly struggle with those around me, close and far. Because I gotta remember that if they don’t like me I should just make sure they don’t get too close to me to toxify me with their distaste. Also, people that say or pretend they like you but don’t really respect your wishes and limits and boundaries and feelings…it’s a lot to navigate as little-self, even more so than maybe as just adult-self. Or maybe they’re both equally hard modes within to navigate all that. Keep showing us your true self. I like it, and honestly anyone who doesn’t just holds a personal grudge ^^ And who cares about them when you have others you can vibe with! That’s what I think whenever I interact with you and this community. Really helps me be confident and strong in myself and believe in what I and others like me stand for. πŸ˜€ (Not bad at all.)

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    1. Amen, my dear friend! So beautifully said and written. I will absolutely take your advice and march into the future being my most authentic self, and every time I get an ounce of self-consciousness I will remember your words. ❀ ❀

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