Good Afternoon Friends,
I hope you all are staying safe and healthy. Today I was reflecting how vulnerable and Little I’ve felt over the past couple of weeks. Since the pandemic really hit California hard, I haven’t had time to slow down and go into little space. I haven’t had time to regress and babble in the Captain’s arms.
But that doesn’t mean that the feeling hasn’t been there.
You see, I think now more than ever I have felt incredibly little. All of a sudden our day to day life got turned upside down on its head. Like you, I’ve watched the whole world get flipped upside down, and that has made me feel scared, anxious, and timid. I’ve had to put on my brave parent-face all while feeling so tiny inside. In order to cope and process the flow of emotions, I’ve had to find ways to be discreetly little without diving in full time to a play session. Here are some things I’ve been up to:
I always feel happily little when I bake. I get my hands dirty in flour. I make pretty shapes out of the dough, and a tasty treat is the reward at the very end. Yes, baking has been a cathartic outlet for me to let off some stress and just feel small. Today I baked up a batch of chocolate chip cookies from celebrity Joanna Gaines of Magnolia Farms! They were super delicious and so I thought I would pass along the very simple recipe. ❤
Joanna Gaines’ Chocolate Chip Cookies
Makes: 1 dozen
- 2 cups of brown sugar
- 1 stick of butter, at room temperature
- 2 eggs
- 1.5 teaspoons vanilla
- 2.5 cups all-purpose flour
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1 heaping teaspoon baking soda
- 1/4 cup water
- 3/4 bag of semi-sweet chocolate chips
- Preheat the oven to 350 degrees (F)/ 177 degrees (C).
- In a stand mixer, place the brown sugar and butter. Whip together until well combined and it looks crumbly.
- Add in the eggs, vanilla, flour, salt, baking soda, and water, and mix until well combined.
- Add in the chocolate chips and mix until it’s evenly distributed.
- Take a tablespoon and place 1 tablespoon heaps on a cookie sheet.
- Bake in the oven for 15-17 minutes. Let cool and serve!
II. Watching Movies:
Just the other night we snuggled up as a family and watched “Lu Over the Wall” on Netflix. It’s a wonderful, animated film that is sure to make all of my fellow-Little friends feel tiny (and for you dom’s to enjoy too! 😉 ). The movie is about a mermaid who can magically sprout legs and dance when she hears music. The mermaid, Lu, meets a kind boy named Kai, who is a high schooler looking for his purpose. This movie has magic, classic anime-design, a well thought out plot, and GREAT music for you to wiggle around and dance to! I know I couldn’t stop dancing throughout the whole film. ❤
III. Chickens, Sunshine, and Walking Hand in Hand:
It’s hard to stay self-isolated in the house for days on end. This is why I’ve been enjoying walking all over the farm hand in hand with the Captain. I love holding his hand. He is always warm, and his palm is soft. We interlace fingers and for the briefest moment I feel like everything is normal. It’s as if this little bubble we’re living in on the farm isn’t really a bubble. It’s simply home, and we are connected to the outside world again. Meanwhile, the hens cluck with glee each time we walk up and down the long driveway. They lay their eggs on a regular basis, and enjoy the bird seed that they get from us. Having the sun on my face lifts my spirits and continues to give me hope.
While I firmly believe we should all self-isolate, I hope you are getting fresh air too. Whether you are sitting by an open window, or taking a walk outside well away from others, I hope you are making space to stay attuned to nature. I heard a woman say recently that the Earth is getting a break in this pandemic. The air pollution in large cities has gone down significantly. Animals that usually stay away from places have returned, and all the world is growing still and calm. Bask in it. Relish the quiet and find peace despite the waves of fear and trepidation.
It’s going to be okay. ❤
Sending you all so much love today, and every day. Until next time!