Sometimes Life Feels Surreal [Reflections]


Good Afternoon Friends,

Yesterday was my first day out of the house in weeks. Five weeks, actually. My annual pap smear appointment had arrived and I didn’t want to miss it. Clad in an N-95 mask and surgical gloves, I walked into the sleek building that housed my OBGYN. While I was in there I felt safe. As someone who lives with anxiety on the daily, I have to confess that I had been stressing for several days before hand. Would there be idiots not wearing masks walking all around me there? Would someone who is asymptomatic be in the waiting room where I’m sitting? The familiar layer of fear, doubt, and anxiety crept over me and flooded my mind.

Yet still, I went. I was immediately greeted by an army of nurses who took our temperatures even before we set foot into the office. I grinned behind my mask with pride. The more measures put in place, the better off I feel. I’m one of those “you can never be too careful” types. The appointment came and went, and I was glad that I had gone. I felt reinvigorated to step outside the farm and venture into my community. “You know what?” I said to my husband, “Let’s get our groceries from the store ourselves this week!”. (We had been using Instacart up until now).

The Captain and I hopped into the car and off we went this morning. Now, I live in a beach town in California. Unlike the major cities here (L.A. and San Francisco), my county has been well below the average number of positive cases. For that, I’m deeply thankful. But still, COVID-19 has hit my county with a whopping 243 confirmed cases, so we all became extremely vigilant.

As I drove our car down the main road along the ocean I blinked in shock. People… travelers… were bustling around the hotel strip! My mouth fell open and I was stunned. The shelter-in-place order hasn’t been lifted. But some of the beaches have reopened. Thus, like a pack of germy zombies… people came here. And with a lot of bodies, so too comes a lot of germs. “Oh no…” I muttered, “they’re here!”. You see, I’ll give you a local tip when it comes to beaches. People who live on the beach know to not actually go to the beach in the summer. It’s hot. It’s packed. And you’re going to be surrounded by bickering families carrying way too much stuff onto the sand. Locals know to go to the beach in Spring, Fall, and Winter. So if you ever want to go to the beach, go in the off season. Trust me, it’s much better. 😉

Along we went past the booming hotels to the downtown district, and despite the restaurants being take-out only… queues lined with people waiting for food. Most of them weren’t wearing masks. Young 20-somethings zipped by on skateboards and bikes without a care in the world. I looked at my husband.

“They do know that the pandemic isn’t over…. right?” I asked. For a moment, everything felt surreal. The town looked the way it used to be. People were walking around with over-sized sunglasses and flip flops. Children played in the sun having the time of their life.

But this isn’t normal! The pandemic isn’t over!

I pulled into a parking lot to gather my thoughts. We can only control our actions and what we do. But if there’s one message I could put out to the world it would be this: I get it. You’re bored. I’m bored. And the sunshine is just begging you to come out and play. But y’all… it’s too soon. No amount of fun and beach walking is worth contracting this virus. You have the power to keep yourself, and everyone you come into contact with, safe so long as you stay home. And if you do go out… please wear a mask (and preferably gloves). Arm yourself with hand sanitizer, and wash your hands on the regular. It makes a difference!

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’ll be burrowing back down here on the farm. ❤ Stay safe and healthy everyone! Until next time!

Much love,

~Kitten xx


  1. I hear and feel your fear. We are in LA county. There’s so little effort by the general public to stay in shelter in place. And as soon as I heard they were opening some counties with lower rates, my first thought was how many people would flock there. Of course they would. Who wouldn’t? Mentally people need a break, and the emotional satisfaction of going out to anywhere would push people over there. I don’t know what the right answer is, but I know the laws and expectations need to be unified across greater areas to be effective.

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    1. So well said, Minnie, and I’m glad you’re staying safe and healthy down south. 🙂 You’re absolutely correct when saying that there needs to be more clarity and unification across California to help people understand the shelter-in-place order, and how to move forward as we slowly begin to reopen. I definitely think it would help if my county encouraged travelers to wear a mask out. And I know the hotels have been mandated to only fill to 50% occupancy as a way to deter people from traveling. *sighs* One way or another we will all get through this together! ❤ Sending you big hugs, my friend! Have a beautiful day! xx

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  2. “whopping 243 confirmed cases” – yeah, I laughed, sorry. It’s because I live in Chicago, IL. That shit had spread like wildfire. Wish we only had that many. But I’m sure for the size of your town that still is scary.

    As for the maskless zombies, many people here (even the police monitoring the protests) aren’t wearing masks even considering we’re one of the hotspots for the virus. So I empathize. It’s kinda gross. Even one Uber driver I had wasn’t wearing one. TwT The protesters are being safe though (most of them, as they should). You’ll probably see a post from me soon about the police and with actual photos from one of the protests ^^!

    I hope you can seize your newfound freedom regarding your confidence to leave the house as a way to soothe your anxiety. But if you must hole in linger, don’t worry. Being a mole is still very comforting. Glad you’re taking the events as well as you possibly can. People wanna shit in optimists but look at us now 🤔🤷🏽‍♀️ We become heroes in these times. Keep up with your adoption of the sanitary life! It still helps your kids and hubby and thus a whole extra household in the U.S. when you do your duty to the pandemic world. It may seem like a small step in the right direction, but regarding the pandemic that is a real actual step! And you’re goddamned right. No night on the strip is literally worth contracting this thing. Like…ugh. people have died. How would someone feel if they got sickn right after? XD Things like could have easily been avoided, especially if after they followed the basic rules of a pandemic if they just took essential walks around their neighborhood or did a picnic on their patio. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Creativity, women and men! (P.S. always great to see a post by you. I don’t mind if it’s a little slower paced now because of the recent events. Plus I can keep up a little now with what I’ve read form you and what I haven’t! And catching up has never hurt a soul. You put out a substantial amount of quality content, so, I think it’s doing a great job holding you over during slower times like this! 🤗🎉🤭 )

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    1. Girly! Oh my goodness, if you’re in downtown Chicago, please be safe!! I know the major cities really got hit hard between the pandemic and the protests. I’m sending you massive positive energy and healing vibes. Yeah, my town is tiny and the areas that got hit the hardest are the pockets where there is a concentration of people living in close quarters as opposed to the upscale areas with larger homes that are more spread out. Regardless, I still don’t trust anyone to not be asymptomatic right now. So, I’m still on top of my lysol/wipes/sanitizer/mask game lol. And dude! Didn’t Uber make a rule that every driver/passenger has to wear a mask? I would’ve said something lol.
      Your comments always make me so happy and filled with love. Sending you big squeezes right back, my friend! Have a beautiful day! ❤ 🙂

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      1. Aww, thanks. Yours make my day too 🙂 Trust me~

        *Big hugs will be eternally shared between us!*

        Yeah I was going to but my mask broke upon getting into their car (I got the flimsy disposable ones) so I was like…damnit. XD If I report them, I’m probably being reported. I think imma buy a durable mask now. The flimsy ones are free and all and my mom brings them from work since they’re abundant there, but…they break! Maybe I’m just a bit heavy handed ❤️

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